Right so i went to the doctors a few months ago and told him about my depression. I have battled it for 6 years but since i told the doctor it feels like it is right in my face and won't go away! He gave me fluoxetine and it didn't work so i have been changed now to citalopram and given diazepam to help with my anxiety too. I had one of my so called friends who ignored me when i was in need have a go over a text message! I stopped coaching an u 14's rugby team that i did with him because i felt i'd let them down if i couldn't give 100% to it. I told him it was personal issues as i didn't want an issue made of my depression. Now when i send him a message to ask how they are doing he has a go and accuses me of dropping them in it letting him down etc for no reason at all! That made my blood boil and i lost it. Why is it none of these supposed 'friends' yet total strangers can understand by reading this for example!?
I don't know the reason for this post as such but i suppose i just need to know why someone who has never met me can understand straight away!? Even if they don't have depression themselves.
I feel like i am starting to beat it then back it comes bigger and badder than ever! I hate it! Just wish this parasite would give me my life back!
I feel alone in a world off millions there is 1 person keeping me going and they know who they are so i will mention no names but they keep me treading water that bit longer.