i stopped cutting for about five months but on sunday i fanally gave in. now i cut deeper and more often. i've cut myself at least 4 times a day everyday since and i feel like the biggest dickhead. my cutting has never been this bad and i feel like i've failed my family, myfriends, my psychotherapist and most of all myself. But i feel like its so worth it you know? for those 30 seconds after i've cut myself when everything melts away to nothing, and all thats left is me and i almost feel normal. just those few minutes when i almost feel worthy and i don't feel like scum.
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