Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I'm sorry to do this guys, but I tried to bring up a subject that I needed help with and I did get alot of help (motivation) but I lied...what's really going on with me today is that I just can't seem to stop crying. I don't mean that I'm crying non=stop, but I just crying and scream,etc and then calm down for alittle while and start again. I'm so lonely and deprived of human touch that I'm dying inside...I still love my ex so much that it literally hurts. He doesn't want me and he's made that very very clear. Why? cause, I'm a slob and I "use my mental illness" as an excuse...he wants to remain "friends" and he's the only person taht I have to talk to (except you guys)...I don't even know why I still love him...he's such an asshole and he makes me so mad whenever we talk now and I know that I "deserve" better (yea,right) but I can't stop...I just want it to be like it was.....us, together....god, has turned his back to me...no love for me every again and I can't get the suicide thing down...my meds aren't working, I've just lost my insurance, etc. We all have bad things going on, but I just don't want to live like this anymore...I cry,and cry....I wake up crying....help me please
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
We are here for you
Your sadness is so profound, and it is so hard to see beyond the forest of despair we have growing up around us sometimes...
I have had those screaming ,crying days...where I just can't get a handle on my brain...
First off, you have mentioned that you have been in regular contact with a hotline...Keep that at hand...
Next, I know you said you live in a very isolated place...What is around you? What kind of community is available to you? I think it is critical that you find somewhere to enjoy human contact--even if it is just to go visit the library or a pet store or someplace where you might strike up a conversation with someone...
Right now, the boyfriend who left you and the sadness over that is going to continue playing on your mind in a loop that isn't going to allow hope through...If you have to, shout at your own thoughts to stop...
I believe you say in your profile that you have a number of pets...Can you get out for a bit and go for a walk?
Keep talking...Let's see if we can get you through this dark moment...
You used to teach...Do you have any connections to people you used to work with? I know that I have let a lot of valuable friendships fall by the wayside over the last ten years, and that makes me loathe to pick up the phone and talk to anyone because I am ashamed and embarassed by the time I have let pass...But, I find that, when I do make contact--or they contact me--they are always happy to talk...That awkwardness just vanishes...Can you reach back into your past and see some people who have meant something to you that you could make contact with?
But it hurts, allow yourself to grieve & cry & don't feel guilty about it.
Volunteering at the library would be great...There are so many opportunities to meet people with all sorts of interests...and you might just find friendships bloom from there...
As for contacting people from your teaching...I was just thinking about finding someone you might enjoy talking to...Even if you don't work in teaching in your new location, you may find something you could do with your experience in teaching...Maybe if you spent some time at the library and got to know some people there, you could start a discussion group or head up a book club, reading books on psychology...You say you really loved doing that, so you do have a passion you could play up...That's good news for you!