I am so depressed right now. Hi, my name is Julie and I had a double mastectomy due to cancer. My uncle just died and the viewing was yesterday and the funeral was today. My immediate family knows everything about the cancer. My uncle and aunt or the only two close relatives I have left. Everyone else that was close had died from cancer. So the relatives that were there at the viewing are distant relatives. I guess they knew about my cancer and surgery because when I got there yesterday, I had people coming up to me saying, I heard you had your boobs cut off. Can I feel and see if yours feel real? I had my prostesis bra on. They never looked me in the eye, they were just looking at my chest. I was so embarassed and humiliated and shocked, I didnt even know what to say. They said all kinds of things. When my family got there I told them I had to go. Then today at the funeral, people were telling me, you know that no man will ever want you now. What does it look like not having boobs. And it just went on and on. I didnt want my aunt hearing all of this, so I would just say excuse me. What I wanted to yell was,,yes, I know no man is going to want me now. I know I look like a freak. I was just so humiliated, shocked,embarassed. It took all I had not to cry in front of them. I left right after the funeral. Now its just been a reminder for me, like I could forget it anyway, of how I look and feel about me. I just cant believe people can be so mean and cruel. Besides drs. appt. I never leave the house. This was the first time I have been out of the house in years and it will be the last too. I am just literally sick at my stomach. I am in so much pain. So much for the saying about words can never harm you. Thanks for listening and letting me vent. Julie
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