i don't know how this happens - has anyone had this happen, where everything seems to be going well, you have battled your inner demons & not only feel on top of it, but it shows - things are really going well for you - then suddenly, it all crashes? it snot like anything in my outward life has changed - i just feel back at square one. i feel like i am being brutally honest with myself - i am worthless, i have no value, i suck, i want to die. but i also no that the change, the sudden about-face just feels crazy. but i look at how i had been feeling & i think "no, tha tis crazy - how could i have been so delusional as to think i had worth?"
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