Try some self care today... I'm not well enough right now to be of much help...your not alone though...

I know exactly how you feel! Going through it myself

I haven't met anyone who enjoys anxiety. It also sounded like you got quite angry. I would suggest that whenever I let things for too long that I end up reacting more strongly than what I would on a good day.

Self-involved people exist, its sad but it is true.

If cutting is all that you have now to deal with the anxiety, so be it. It will pass.

I say let self involved spoiled brats be just that.Reality will catch up to them sooner or later, and then they'll have to work hard to get where everyone else already got through less dirty means.

Don't let these selfish tossers make you resort to cutting, try to rise above them!

Anyone ever get that falling feeling? It's something that I know now can't be avoided, it will result in cutting and crying and panic attacks until it eases off for a while then happens again, wonder if I should keep track of it and see if there's a pattern. I'm not sure which is worse the waiting and wondering when you will hit the ground or actually hitting.

ive been in kina of the pos before things do gt better things do end up gting srted out in the dnt wanna do n e thing (cutting)ive beenn there jst gting past it jst try and keep carm n if you wanna talk let me no

This is getting worse, I just don't feel right, I've taken some valium but there not helping, I think I'm starting to have a panic attack and I just can't take that right now, I'm so fucking miserable just like complete despair, I never do this but please someone what the hell do I do!? I wanna be commited I can't handle this anymore.

try and carm yourself dwn think about whats gne off act on if you think you need to n like i said let me no if you wanna tlk about n e thin or n e time trust me people on this site help you as much as pos

Do what I do when people are constantly trying to break me.........GET STUBBORN and don't let them win.

If they want to behave like spoiled little brats then let them, you're not responsible for their behaviour and obviously they lack the maturity to be able to hold a rational adult conversation and treat their loved ones with respect.

Have you tried the rubber band method? I'm not a cutter myself but I have heard from others who cut that this can be quite effective and less harmful.

Pain can be a constant in times of crisis. You have already identified that you want to be committed and that shows a great deal of concern for yourself. Because you fear what you feel you cannot control and it sounds as though you wish you had a break when others can control that for you and stop you from cutting or worse, that thing you really fear. I know that feeling. I know how it feels to be so tired that you need a rest from the fight to keep yourself safe. I wish I could help. I can only say that if you do the things you fear that it will be easier next time and the time after that and it will be harder to stop because you have revisited your addiction. But if you resist the same is true that it will be, not greatly, but a little easier to resist next time, and the time after that and the time after that. If you have to go to the hospital to stop from hurting yourself then, it still counts. Because even though you wanted to you took a step to stop. Some people think it is weak to get help in this way, but they do not understand the tremendous amount of strength and perseverance it takes for people like us to make it through s good dsy. They are the ones who would judge us before they have lived our lives. Many people around me would be catatonic or dead if they had to spend one minute inside my head, struggling as I do on a daily basis. And I suspect the same is true. Can you imagine the total helplessness of the spoiled brats in your life if they had to face your fears for only a day? The truth is that you are a strong person not because you have failed in the past but because you have survived every day to this point and it has not been easy. A person not as strong as you would have been dead long ago, and you know that is true because it sounds like you have faced that decision before. You will make it through tonight - you are that strong. I don't know if either of us will make it through tomorrow. But for people like us tomorrow is an eternity away, and when the sun rises again we will make that decision. But, you are not alone, and if I make it through this night for you can you do the same for me? And tomorrow we will try to find a better reason, but tonight maybe one hurting soul to another we can fight one more day?

Till Tomorrow,
Dave