Its been almost a year now. I have my family convinced I'm much better, truth is I feel like I'm slipping back down. Everyone thinks I should just "snap out of it". I tried. I try lying to myself but I cant do it anymore. I have nothing left to live for. I have lost everything I have ever loved."He" just walked out of my life after making me make a horrible choice. I regret my choice everyday, yet it doesnt phase him. I cry in the shower, I cry in my car, I cry wherever no one can see me. I'm just not good enough. I'm so tired of feeling this way..... I often wonder where god is when we feel so low.
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