I walked out of my job yesterday and moved back home because I thought I was missing home and felt unsettled. Now I'm back I just want to go back to my old job, but dont think the manager will give it me back when i ring him tomorrow. I feel stuck in my life and as if nothing I do is ever an easy ride, like it is for some people. I am torn between my family and wanting to commit suicide, i love them all so much but really cant take this life anymore. its horrible and want it to end. I just cant do it though, i havent got the resources to do it and dont know if I can put my family through all the pain and hurt. Just want someone to hold me and tell me it will all be alright, but nobody can do it for me.
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