I wonder if it would be easier if I wasnt here, my parents would not have to spend money, they wouldnt have to moan at me for eating if I wanted to, like last night for example they made me cry so much, because I was starving hungry literally and I wanted to eat some weetabix and they moaned at me. Fuels my Anorexia more really.
I always feel like im bothering people, and I think my cpn just proved that, because I called her yesterday to talk some things out, and she didnt even sound like she was listining she was just speaking likeI was bothering her or something, and now Im scared to call anyone, I am to scared to even call my ED psych because I dont want to bother her.
Im confused about why I feel like this because I need to stay here for me, I need my future, I need to have my own family etc, but its so hard now, what can I do?