I'm kind of confused....I mean, I feel kind of really depressed right now. I mean, I feel better than I did before I was admitted to the hospital, but I still feel pretty down. My counselor said she saw my downwards spiral over a period of MONTHS and said that she knew it was going to turn out that way, she just didn't know WHEN my nosedive, crash and burn, landing would occur. Well it did, and now it's like everybody is throwing everything right back up on the pile like it was before....like they gave me relief, now back to work. I'm hurting, sad, my anxiety is terrible, not eating (lost 4 pounds in 1 week, after 40 this past year...), but nobody cares about the not eating thing so it's not hard for me to get away with not eating at all.....I dunno. It's like I fell, had a hard time getting back up, and now I'm being pushed right back down. Slow spiral. *sigh* I want a warning this time before someone puts the brakes on my life and throws everything out of whack yet again.
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