I feel like I have no life anymore, I'm always screwing things up it seems, it's like I have this screw things up gene, just when things are going fine I do something to mess things all up, and ppl just get farther and farther away from me, I don't have anyone to talk to, so I joined up here, if nothing else I will at least be able to rant right ? lol I try to keep my sense of humor even in the darkest times but after a while, nothing seems to work. people who tell me they will always be friends with me eventually disappear, and I don't feel loved or wanted, I'm just "there" if someone wants to cry on my shoulder or if they need me to do something, but then it is as if I don't exist anymore, my gf draws father and farther away each day, I guess since I'm the one who screwed things up, I can't really expect anything else. I can't afford doctors or medication so I guess my only outlet is to talk, and talk and talk, but there's nobody listening or even understanding, well anyway, that's my rant for today, I usually try to be a lot cheerier.
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