There are times when I will be at a party of about 10 people, who I know and still feel completely alone. Why? I feel as though I have no one that understands, and for the most part they don\'t understand. They don\'t get why I am so depresssed. They think I am just sad because I miss my boyfriend (he passed away) but it is so much more then that. I wish I was just sad, but I\'m also scared and lonely and noone gets that. They all say, we are here for you and you have friends. But I spent everyday with my boyfriend, he was my best friend, he knew all my sercets and I could be 100% me around him. I didn\'t have to be scared. I\'m not close like that with anyone anymore. So I guess my question is, how do I stop feeling so alone? I know hard question huh!
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