I am recently single, jobless, broke, and pregnant. I am trying everything I can do to get back to a safe survival mode,,i.e job interviews, looking for an affordable place to live, praying that my car keeps running and that I can somehow find a way to feed my little child and myself. I am treatment resistant or have untreatable depression. I cry every single day,..many times a day. It is so unbearably painful. I am alone and feeling such pain and grief. Nothing has helped. I pray every single minute. But day by day things get worse. I have tried almost every med, been to counseling, tried omega , excersise, ..you name it. Nothing works. I don't understand how to cope and make through each agonizing second when I cannot find the hope or strength. I pray for death, but I won't do it to myself because of my love for my children. I can't believe life is supposed to be this completely miserable. But honestly I cannot remember ever being happy. This has gone on for decades. So ,..no,..for some people it does not get beter. For some people there is no hope or cure. I have fought and fought,..now I am tired and completely exhausted.
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