So mood is incredibly up and down right now. One minute I'm ok. Next I'm climbing the walls. Do I deal with it? er........NO!!! All of the others have given up. Lucy disappeared a few weeks ago, not that I told many people. But she hasn't come back since. I'm not sure why, maybe she couldn't be bothered with us anymore. Jessica is constantly crying, hurting and now accepting that maybe this is the only way. Louise, Kristain and Hannah accept this fact. As do I. I'm in control, mostly. And I guess now it's a matter of time. When? I haven't decided yet. How? Again haven't decided yet. Why? To stop the pain we feel. There is one reaosn to stay alive and I'm clinging to that right now. But I've accepted that may disappear as well.
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