i'm a long time member of ds that has not been here for quite sometime, break-up and divorce was my main group. i'm pretty much over that, it being almost 4 years ago. i have suffered from depression since 1994. several different meds, counseling, doing all i can to help myself. i have been home going on week 2. had to have my gall bladder removed and am not working. i can't stand the way i feel, i don't want to get up, get cleaned up, all i want is to sleep, i feel like i have no one in the world, yet i have a wonderful family and wonderful friends. i go to counseling every 2 weeks, although have missed the last 2 sessions. i feel like i would be better off if i wasn't in this world, although i won't harm myself. (just being truthful). i just can't stand feeling like this, i want to be happy....... thanks for listening. it's really appreciated.
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