I went last Friday to a program (Christian based) called Celebrate Recovery because a friend of mine in Fla said it is what saved her life. Last thursday I sank to the bottom of the pit out of no where. Went to the tanning bed and while there started having flashbacks of my son (who passed away at age 20 in 2003). I panicked while in there and for the next 48 hrs was in such a depression and fear state. SO that Friday nite I made myself go to this program which I found a blessing to be in my home town. At first, I felt like I didnt want to be there. But as time went on, I felt more and more peaceful. Has anyone else on here heard of it around them or tried it??? I am going to continue to attend and pray that this will be an answer to my healing. Ive been in therapy for over a year straight here and on medication and read self-help books, prayed, everything to break this termoil of depression and fear that covers me. I am desperate for healing so I can hold a job and feel as normal as I can in this not so normal life.
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