Just got back, I had 2 go 2 the job centre 2 sign on cause I cant find a job so have 2 have job seekers allowance till I can get a job was my 1st time going outside since last Thursday was not looking forward 2 going out but had no choice I felt really panicky and was going short of breath and my hands were getting sweaty and I hadnt even left the house when I got 2 the job centre I was finding it hard 2 breathe I wish I hadnt gone there the person who I saw 2 sign in could see there was something wrong with me and as some of u know I find it difficult 2 tell people how I am feeling I just said there nothing wrong she then said have u had an argument with ur parents at this point I felt just walking out cause I didnt like that she was asking me question like that im feeling so fed up now im just glad I dont have 2 go back there till another 2 weeks now im still finding it difficult 2 talk about this but I had 2 get it off my chest b4 I left she said make sure ur happy next time : ( maybe I should have faked how I felt and just been happy but I felt 2 down and panicky 2 think about wat 2 say 2 her and my head so messed up so it didnt I didnt like the way she was looking at me either.

As I was walking home I had this girl make the usual comments that most girls say about me it made me panic more and I had my 1st panic attack in a long time im just so glad im home now.