OK people, I posted last night that I quit my job and today I went and did applications for new jobs against my will. Took all day and found jobs that hopefully won't do drug tests and are under 18. I found a few. Got about 7 applications, filled em all out. Unfortunately, almost all of them required drug testing. Despite that fact, I still got drunk tonight, got pissed off and hit some weed to calm down or else I would have blown up on my mom, which would have caused me to get kicked out even quicker, even though I took all day and made an effort to even try to quit smoking and drinking, then I got invited to a party and I went, got drunk, got pissed, still drunk now, and a bit stoned...I don't know why I cannot quit this drug and alcohol abuse, but it will not stop and I'm sick of it...I'm always in a fog, but still cannot stop....it's like my body needs it. Ugh....what do I do folks?
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