What I am feeling right now, so i don't try. I would like to think that people have a wide range of complex emotions, that can change at any moment - but unfortunately for me because I am not apart of the "Depression Association", I get the open door of acceptance slammed in my face... That is besides the main point though. All I know right now, is that I have something deep, really deep inside of me and it is hanging around like two weights pulling on mind. I feel very "deep" at the moment, and contemplative. I am starting to write loads and loads of lyrics to express myself, but I don't know what good can come out of it if there is no one there to share the experience with me.... It's like, when everything stands still inside, when you can watch the whole world like a ghost, and everything else is moving but you feel so still - you can hear something else, and it isn't sound, it's this natural feeling - but it's foggy, it drags itself out. Can anyone get what I mean? Why it's so dissapointing to not find that 'gap' as it were, between purity and illusion when you feel for something or someone? This isn't terribly painful, but something is missing. I need someone with a keen mind, who is feeling deep tonight too that I can talk with. Anyone?
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