Well as you can see from the subject I have spent most of my day crying. I am so overwhelmed I just can't think clearly. The lack of money and over mounting bills are more than I can deal with. I've had to cancel all of my appointments for May because I just don't have enough gas in the car and no money to buy gas. I'VE TOLD MYSELF ALL THE USUAL THINGS...... THIS TOO SHALL PASS, WHAT DOESN'T KILL US MAKES US STRONGER.... GOD IS WITH ME. Done of it is helping. I have spent the weekend hiding from the world and doing journal entries. Feel freee to read 'em. Sometime life is just too damn hard. I've been working so hard trying to put my life together after the divorce. Everytime it seems as if I'm almost there I get slapped back down. I feel as if I'm not a whole person when the anxiety and depression kicks in. I'm so sick of being poor, yet I can't find a job, and sometimes I think I'm just too damn fussy. I become so anxious in new sitiuations I just can't think. Damn I hate feeling the way I do.
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