Lately I've been so depressed that when I'm not working all I want to do is sit on the sofa, stare at the TV and dwell on all the terrible things that have happened in my life. Then the more I dwell the worse I feel and sometimes it feels like i'm just not able to move or to get motivated to do anything. I have gone weeks sometimes without doing yardwork, and I have put off things that need to be done around the house, and have even put off cleaning the house for days. I used to enjoy doing all of those things, but now it seems like I have no motivation. I also sleep a lot on my days off, sometimes 10 to 12 hours a day. There are times that I drink so I can fall asleep. I do fine at work, get a lot done, but when I'm home I'm just always sad and unmotivated. Geez, I feel like sometimes I'm never going to get myself out of this hole i'm in... Is anyone else out there going through this same thing?
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