I am feeling as low as I ever have since my divorce. I am terribly depressed and I miss my kids and home beyond belief. I have been having suicidal thoughts the last several days and can't tell if it is my OCD or if I really want to. I can't stop crying. I am seeking therapy but still feel terrible. I don't want to go into a hospital at all! I can't risk my ex finding out and taking the kids from me altogether. I just can't stop thinking about my life as I knew it. I can't come to terms with the fact that this is my new life. I feel so alone and scared. I want to be back home. it's unbearable to me. I don't know what to do. I just took my meds so I hope it calms me down some. I start on Zoloft tomorrow. My talk therapy is Wednesday night. Somany people on here reach out to me but I still feel terrible. I can't get a handle on my situation. The tremendous sadness and obsessive thoughts are taking over me. I want my old self back but it feels like it's lost forever and I'm just hanging on by a thread. I used to be so clear minded and content with my old life. It's been all but stripped of me. Can I bother you all one more time for any possible solutions. Thank you so much! Brett
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