What do you do when you can't cry? All my coping techniques are ones I should not use. Feeling like I want to cut, must not do-going swimming later on . Want to drink,-don't want to let the alcohol counsellor down in the first week, Want to eat, will end up with me being sick. I thought I was cheering myself up , went out and bought a new outfit even managed to look at myself in the mirror without seeing all my skin falling off. I am left with this terrible feeling of dread. My mind is taking me to places where I really shouldn't be going like the amount of sleeping pills I have and excess medication. Why? I am trying to stay positive. Tried screaming silently , just feel a fool. Voices have started up and I c an't block them out.
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