I'm here...I have a few minutes before I have to go to the doc, but I will be back..what can I do for ya?

How do I make myself stop crying. I have tried everything. I just can't handle this anymore. Meds aren't working. Tried so many different kinds. I don't know why I am so sad. Thank you for caring.

Honey, depression is not something ANYONE can put a finger on. I have told so many people this...I journal. I write down in my journal every thought, feeling, anything that is said to me, anything I say...ALL OF IT. That way it's getting it out of me. Have you ever tried that?

yes, i am a songwriter, that's what i do. But even writing here, right now, makes me cry more. i can't call anyone. i can't keep putting my family and friends and boss through this. they feel do helpless. i am breaking their hearts' and i don't mean to. I thought it was suppose to get better. i know that only i can help myself, but how? i can't find the strength within me. where is God right? i can't feel him.

I have to go to my doc appt. I will be back in about 1 1/2 hours. I will look you up then. In the meantime, others here with surely help out anyway they can. As soon as I get back I will check in on you, I promise! But..the journaling thing. When nothing else is working for me and I feel like I can not go on any longer, I put everything down in my journal. It's a way to get it out of me and not feel like I am going to be judged by others about my innermost "stuff". Hang on there!!

Right now you do not worry about what others are feeling. You are not putting anyone through anything! We all chose to be there for others. That will hopefully make you feel better that there are others that care. When yo are writing a song, you are trying to make sense with your words. When you journal, it's not going to make sense. You just put it down on paper and keep writing. Things will get better!

Faith, are you on meds?

hi hon,
start by taking deep breaths, continue that until you calm down.turn off form everythnig until you calm down.if you need to go to the restroom and do this.you are going to be ok,breath long deep breaths until you feel calm again.
you just have too many things on your mind right now.and being scared of your feelings is making it harder to calm down.so just think of nothing but your breathing.for now.
hugs
joyce

I hate that feeling!! I sit in the toilets at work crying, I want to call someone but there's only so many times you can call crying without being able to say why. I really don't know how to stop it, just thought it might make you feel better to know that you are not alone and not being able to describe the way you feel and why you feel like it I think is one of the worst parts of depression. I hope you feel better soon,
Big Hug,
Bella xxx

I don't know you but I have been where you are. Are you seeing a psychiatrist and are you on medication? If this depression is affecting your life in a major way, please get yourself to a psychiatrist. See your primary physician and get them to recommend someone. IF you have already done that and haven't taken too many days off work, take a day off and contact a family member or friend to spend some time with. Just hang in there, focus on work if you can and block out any negative thinking. One day at a time sweetie.

Yes PaganChild, I am on meds. That's what sucks so much. I used to drink to make it go away, I know now that that is not the answer. How can you fight being sad when you don't really know why?

Ginny, I am seeing a theripist. Joyce the breathing helping, thank you. Thank you all. Bella, it does help to know that someone else has been there. It makes me feel sad that you have to go through that. I wish all my love to all of you.

call a hot line
talk to a real voice
it makes a difference.....please

I am back from the doc. I hope you are feeling better! See I told ya that there were so many willing to help! Remember what you have done today that has helped. I take a few minutes several times a day to just breathe. I am a stay at home mom with 4 kids so there is always noise! I send the kids outside or to their rooms and turn off the phone, computer and TV and just "be". Breathe slowly in through your nose and out your mouth. Slow Deep breaths. Most everyone here has been in your shoes. You are NEVER alone.

I love you guys. NayNay, thank you for checking in on me. I seriously don't know what I would do without you all.