I have been divorced for 18 months now but the pain, hurt and anger are as fresh as it was back then. I am so depressed all the time. I look at old pictures and cry all the time. I miss seeing my kids on a every day basis and living in my old house. I have tried therapy but it hasn't really helped. I have OCD but haven't had an obsessive thought in 8 years until I found out I was getting divorced. Now I have suicidal thoughts all the time but can't tell if they are as a result of my OCD acting up or if I really want to die. Finally, the depression has also caused me to experience depersonalization symptoms ( feeling like you are on the outside looking in at yourself). Between the depression, thoughts and DP I feel like I could lose my mind at any moment. my kids help me get by when I see them but its not enough to live a quality life in the least. Why haven't I gotten better? Its been 18 months! I pray to God all the time but feel that he may have abandoned me for my past discretions. Does anyone understand? Please help? Sincerely, Brett
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