Don't base your self-worth on a man.

Eloka,its not you its your bf who seems to have the problem from what you have written.
You deserve some one who will trust you with love and respect and love you for who you are not who you think you should be.
It sounds to me like he is addicted to porn and that is a big red flag for you.
Also not all guys like big boobs that is a fallacy that seems to keep being reinforced by the media etc

how do you feel about how he is treating you?

you are seeing everything from his perspective, what about you?

I agree very strongly with game

Oh, hun, you are beautiful and perfect just the way you are.

I agree with both game and hiareth.

If he don't want you for what you are he is not worth it

You are a great person, period. I encourage you to consider that physical attributes count for far, far less than the person you are inside. It is who you ARE that counts, not your cup size, or how much you weigh. If he doesn't love and respect you AS YOU ARE, take a hard look at the relationship. Just might be a case of a wrong choice. Best wishes.

I am 5'7 and 120 pounds. I am also almost 57. I was even thinner when younger, please don't worry, I have been married for 34 years and my husband still 'worships' my body. He loves all of me. Find a man who loves you just as you are. I fI found my hubby with porn, I'd shove it up his ass tho'. Why should he need it when he has a woman who fulfills all his needs.

Don't let how he treats you make you feel like this because no one should have that power over anyone. You should be proud of yourself hun ad stuff what he might think, if he is not treating you right go out and find someone that will adore you. I do not know you but you are not a disgusting pig no one on this planet is and i doubt with every bit of me that you are ugle because there is beauty in everyone. Ugliness is not in image but inside and i can tell that you are far from an ugly person.

Are your feelings based on something he has said or done or because you feel yourself that your ugly?

#1 you are not fat, if anything probably a little under weight.
Game is right.
Sounds like he also has an addiction to it, he should get counceling.

some lyrics for ya...





Something you should know about Unpretty Lyrics

Title: TLC - Unpretty lyrics

Artist: TLC

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(dallas austin and tionne "t-boz" watkins)
1999 cyptron music/emi blackwood music (bmi) and grung girl music (ascap)
(appears on "unpretty" import single)



Left eye:
Find the reflection you see to be so damn unpretty
Find the reflection you see to be so damn unpretty

T-boz:
I wish I could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you
Look into the mirror whos inside there
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today (yeah)

Chilli:
My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think Im through
Its because of you
Ive tried different ways
But its all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
Im just trippin

Chorus:
T-boz & chilli:
You can buy your hair if it wont grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up that mac can make
But if you cant look inside you
Find out who am i, too
Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty

Left eye:
Find the reflection you see to be so damn unpretty

T-boz & chilli:
Never insecure until I met you
Now Im in stupid
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things
To keep you happy
Maybe get rid of you
And then Ill get back to me (hey)

do you love yourself?

BBLou, love that song and it fits here.

eloka...plz don't base your worth on what ANYONE else thinks,says or does.
he's obviously a porn addict which has ZERO to do with YOU..and something that u should REALLY think about and decide is if you wanna deal with a man like that. ugh.

too many great guys out there to waste your time and heart on an asshole.
xoxo

You deserve so much better. You are not fat and from all the messages I have read that you've posted you are definitely a beautiful person. Have you tried expressing your feelings abouw how you feel and the way he treats you? If you have maybe you should think about not being with him anymore. Such negativity is not good for your recovery, you need people around you that make you feel safe and secure and happy with who you are. Try thinking about what you want, how you want to look and how you'd like to feel.

You deserve better than that, my Mom is married to a internet porn addict and she has been miserable for years. You are a beautiful person inside and out. You need to get away from this man because he is killing your self esteem. Don't make the mistake my Mom did. Did he tell you you were those things? You obviously are not a disgusting fat pig. Or any of the other things for that matter. He is living in a fantasy world. Those woman aren't normal woman. The are like 1% of females. Plus they are mostly fake and have you ever noticed that vacant look in their eyes. It is sad but they are so stoned on stuff because they couldn't do that normally. Kick him to the curb and go find yourself a real man.