Everything in my life is a mess. My finances, my relationships with "outsiders", my relationship with my kids, my house...all a big friggin mess. I don't enjoy anything except watching TV and being on the computer. I want to be left alone but I can't because everyone else in the house needs me and I resent not having a moments worth of peace. I have no motivation at all and I wish I could just go away for a few weeks...I want to sleep all the time and I ignore my children because I'm lost in my own problems. Oh yeah, my washing machine shit the bed last night and I don't know how I'm going to get another. With 6 people to do laundry for, I can't be without one for very long and I keep thinking that someday I might find it amusing that I had to hand wash clothes in the bathtub but right now I just can't take the thought. Everything seems so hard and I can't bring myself to do anything constructive. Well, I guess that was quite enough rambling for my first post.
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