
Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

starfish
Yesterday I had the worst hour - everything added up all at once in my mind - well, not everything, but lots of things - that have caused me to feel depressed. And all valid reasons. I wanted to just end it, so tired of this. But I knew enough that it was just a wave, and the feeling would pass. And in a relatively short time, it did.
I am so tired of this, though. I can't work now, and I'm just a social burden. A bump on a log. My children are grown and don't need me any more. This is the antitheses of what I just wrote not long ago about why I will NOT commit suicide. My brain is constantly at war.
Is there ever a time when suicide is a merciful act?
I am so tired of this, though. I can't work now, and I'm just a social burden. A bump on a log. My children are grown and don't need me any more. This is the antitheses of what I just wrote not long ago about why I will NOT commit suicide. My brain is constantly at war.
Is there ever a time when suicide is a merciful act?

deleted_user
I feel ya. But that is great that you recognized that the feeling would pass. I have to say, that i am 26, and I need my parents more than ever now. I used to rebel, and now as hard as it is to admitt, I need them. I am a social burden too. You are not alone.

deleted_user
i know how your feeling,i haven`t been able to work in while.but it will get better.hang in there.

deleted_user
you are not a social burden and at 26 listen to faith21somg she still needs her parents its a nice thought isnt it the kids still need you grown or not . my opioion ONLY suicide only merciful for you I havent worked in ten yrs been supported by hubby and ssi but not a social burden all of us need help for time to time take it when you need it and it sounds like you need it now

deleted_user
I have a hard time with that question myself. I don't fault anyone for committing suicide, because I know how painful constant mental anguish can be. But like you said, it is just a wave that will pass. Maybe life is about learning how to ride that wave instead of resisting it or ending it in suicide. Even in your most painful darkest hour, there is quiet peace underneath it all.

deleted_user
Just wanted to add that children always need their parents. My parents and my sister are my greatest motivation for staying alive. We are like a team that sticks together- I need them and they need me.

starfish
I guess that is also one of my problems - I have never been very close to my mom or my dad, or my sister or my brothers. Not for any length of time anyway. I have found it more condusive to my sanity to stay distant rather than close, and they seem to feel the same way with me. My cats are my closest emotional attachment, and they are not too specific in their speech! As far as I can tell!

deleted_user
I can relate to your desire to stay distant. I have an often difficult and rocky emotional relationship with my Mum, she and I seem to argue about everything under the sun. I cant seem to talk to her without having an argument or disagreement about something. At the same time she is my main and pretty much my only support (in the flesh anyway :). Its a difficult to resolve quandry which leads often to conflict and sadness but I am still so glad I am talking with her even if it is filled with friction sometimes. Sometimes it is painful because I am forced to recognise truths and weaknesses about myself that I find difficult and painful to acknowledge - ultimately the pain is beneficial in this case and I learn more about myself and hopefully grow into a better person because of it. Again like coffeeshop girl says I need her and she needs me.
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