im william....i dont even know how to start this so i am going to just start at the beginning...i have been with this girl Autumn since i moved upstate in 2005. and starting about the last month or so my depression has been getting really bad. ive always been a lil depressed but i thought that was normal. well me and autumn had a big fight the other day and she texts me that she needs to talk to me. i get there and she is crying and she tells me that she cant be with me because of all the emotional stress...she tells me that she still loves me but she cant be with anyone right now. and that makes me feel even more horrible because i know ive been taking my depression out on her and she doesnt deserve that. she also told me that we could maybe try again in a few months if i can fix whats wrong with me...i went to my college health center and they told me that i have moderate to severe depression and that they would set up an appointment to prescribe me anti depressants....i hate myself for making her feel like she had to break up with me so she didnt have to deal with the stress...i lover her so much but she doesnt want to be with me,,,, i just dont know what to do anymore
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