I am not sure why I feel so lonely, surrounded by a full and extensive life. I am struggling at the bottom of a big hole, and feel like giving up. I've tried so hard this year to make a go of things, join the real world and play the make belive I am whole game, but it seems like I am a fraud and everything I touch goes wrong, What the hell is the point. If I am going to walk around like a big living void, with no anchor to this existence, why the constant struggle? Is it wrong that I am not one of those yes people, who gets by on the mundanities of life, being social, having an existence? Is it wrong to feel so much, but nothing at all? Or am I just a self absorbed jerk who should just get on with it like everyone else?
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