Incoherent rant, mind far too unfocused right now, has been like that for a week. I forgot how depressed I was. Since I went back to college I have been super busy and had loads of mental distractions. Bu now my exams are over and I have no revision I have far too much time alone with my thoughts which is not a good thing. Almost all of my thoughts are very negative. I hate to seem cliched but things just don't seem worth it any more. I hate my life and my situation and I don't see things changing, plus there is one thing that is entirely out of my control, and if that doesn't resolve itself I really don't know how I cope with it. And the loneliness which I had never liked but always been able to tolerate is becoming very difficult.
Recently i have started seeing a counselor and going to therapy and it has been such an immense about of how for me. Although i'm not perfect and back to the way I was there is improvement that I never thought i'd see; but my one problem is that although i'm growing and becoming more positive my home remains unchanged. It's very difficult to be positive and grow in a home that is negative and...
They say what you do in the morning determines how the rest of your day is going go. I keep going through cycles of loving a certain routine to being completely bored with it. I need some inspiration. What do you do to start your days off right?