I am guilty of being one of those people who lets their stress take a physical toll on them, but I almost never see it coming--I'm usually so blinded by the situation that it hits me out of no where. I was in the hospital Sunday night with horrible pains like I had before the hysterectomy and I was thinking "this makes no sense". they did a catscan and said that it looked like scar tissue that may not have healed properly. Is this my fault? I don't know and I feel like I am not always told direct answers. I did do a lot of chores and yard work over the weekend and then the roof had a leak from the storm, which of course put me in a frenzy trying to stop it. I am so broke too, the idea of having to pay for it to be fixed (although I did get someone who I think is pretty reasonable to fix it after all). Even though, when I'm calmer, I usually am able to figure things out, I get so tense and I focus my stress inwardly while trying to go through the motions of getting things done. Can stress really make us sicker and cause things not to heal right or is this just a coincidence that I am having these issues on top of everything else? I am also embarrassed at work--I don't want to have to take off time to get this fixed--I was already out too long last time for the hysterectomy. One sad thing about the work place today is I have noticed that people who stay out too long for health reasons are either consciously or unconsciously thought of negatively by their coworkers, who resent the extra work. Everyone has been nice to me (except my boss did make a comment-- she said she didn't know why I looked so sad and unenergitc--she said "I have a cold" and I am trying to be energetic. I really don't want to say anything to her because it's private, but that makes me want to scream.) I tend to keep everything in side and I don't know, I am rambling ,but is there anyone else out there like that and if so, what do you do to cope?
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