I hate things right now. I fell inlove with someone, and they fell in love back, but then they become really sad and wanting to die. So apparently I'm not a good enough reason to live. Apparently she doesn't love me enough to care enough that I love her. So I'm useless. I am nothing. I am worthless if I'm not enough for her. I only want to make her happy. But she won't be and can't be. I try and try. And she is happy at times and I love it. But other times she is so sad I can't make her happy, and it really hurts me. I really just want to take something right now. But I know it would hurt her if I did. So I can't. I can't do anything but rant and sit here with this useless heart and body..
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