Yesterday was my birthday. I took the day off from work for a Me day. I told my family for two weeks I didn't want gifts or cake. My birthday has meant nothing to me for decades and I don't enjoy receiving gifts. My family tried to force the "celebration" on me. I may sound like an ingrate but the way I see it, why would I want people to give me cards and gifts just so tomorrow can come and things go back to normal, normal being doing for everyone but myself, being spoken down to and generally treated like crap. The best gift they could have given me would have been to simply respect my wishes just for one day. But that couldn't happen. There was a big argument and like an asshole I went out and got trashed. Nobody ever listens to me or my wishes, it' always about them. My life is so fuckin' ridiculous that somehow, again, I'm wrong in asserting myself about my birthday ON my birthday. I'm just tired of being kicked around by the people who are supposed to love me. Why the hell do they always make me wrong? This makes no sense. Any thoughts or advice is appreciated.
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