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So, I quit my job a month ago, because I was feeling so low. I went off my Zoloft for a while to lose fluid retention from it, and I went psychotic.
So, I'm sitting at home on a daily basis thinking about things that bother me, which is just ridiculous and stupid.
Here it goes, because I want to get it out:
I met this guy online when I was 15, and we had an online 'pen-palship' for about five years, and he moved to my state. We only got to be together for four months before he decided to dump me. Three months later he found another girl, now they are married with kids. I can't tell you how much that hurt me at the time it happened.
The weird thing is, I CAN'T LET GO! I have a new boyfriend that I love, but I can't stop holding onto what is in my past.
My childhood was terrible; my dad was an alcoholic and constantly yelling at me for eating, talking, etc. I was just stupid in his eyes. My mother is not an emotional person, so she wasn't really there for me, she would more just yell at me for not having a job and sleeping all of the time. Most of the time I was just "on her nerves."
This online guy was my ultimate joy on a daily basis. Just seeing his screen name come onto yahoo chat was as wonderful as the day bursting out after a cruel, long, sleepless night.
Most people let go, but I HAVE NOT AND I AM SO SICK OF CONSTANTLY HOLDING ONTO PAIN FROM MY PAST!!!!
So, I quit my job a month ago, because I was feeling so low. I went off my Zoloft for a while to lose fluid retention from it, and I went psychotic.
So, I'm sitting at home on a daily basis thinking about things that bother me, which is just ridiculous and stupid.
Here it goes, because I want to get it out:
I met this guy online when I was 15, and we had an online 'pen-palship' for about five years, and he moved to my state. We only got to be together for four months before he decided to dump me. Three months later he found another girl, now they are married with kids. I can't tell you how much that hurt me at the time it happened.
The weird thing is, I CAN'T LET GO! I have a new boyfriend that I love, but I can't stop holding onto what is in my past.
My childhood was terrible; my dad was an alcoholic and constantly yelling at me for eating, talking, etc. I was just stupid in his eyes. My mother is not an emotional person, so she wasn't really there for me, she would more just yell at me for not having a job and sleeping all of the time. Most of the time I was just "on her nerves."
This online guy was my ultimate joy on a daily basis. Just seeing his screen name come onto yahoo chat was as wonderful as the day bursting out after a cruel, long, sleepless night.
Most people let go, but I HAVE NOT AND I AM SO SICK OF CONSTANTLY HOLDING ONTO PAIN FROM MY PAST!!!!
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Letting go of the past IS hard. When the time is right, you'll know. Kind regards.
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Your not alone hun, my ex sexually abused me and i am stil wondering wats up with him and wat hes doin even tho i hate him, its such a weird thing and i wish i cud tell u how to make it go away, all iv learnt is that if u let things like this eat u up itl destroy u and u dont deserve that, it was his loss, but i know its easy for me to say that, i am 2 in a relationship n i love my bf to pieces, i think wen sum1 hurts us its jus so hard to let go, in my head its like i want him to hurt too like he hurt me. I jus wanted to let u know ur not alone in feeling like this xx
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I was with my ex for 6yrs before he moved 1700k's away. He came down every now and then but it did'nt last, only he forgot to tell me.He's been gone for just over a year and i still miss him so much. He has another girlfriend now which makes me think "what happened to our 6yrs". He got over me pretty quick. I don't have a boyfriend,nor do i want one. I still love him and cry about him all the time. Don't think you're alone darl. All the advice i can give you is it takes time to get over the one's that you really do love. Good luck and best wishes.
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I'm totally there with you on this one. It's amazing how we do hold onto the past~ for whatever reasons. Yes, time is the great equalizer. I wish you all the best and just know that sometimes, big girls do cry~ and like me, over very little things!
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I went through the same thing but with my ex-husband of 10 years. After about 5 years I simply came to the conclusion I weren't reacting to loss of someone I loved, I realized I weren't in love with him before we separted. He had simply become a "habit" if you can understand that. I got on with my life after losing 5 yrs grieving over him and I am thankful I did. Try looking at your situation in a different light and see what you come up with. Hugs to you.
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