The only thing I know of for BPD besides medication, is prayer. I am in that place, too, so if you're the praying type, maybe we can pray for each other. I am convinced that these struggles are spiritual as much as they are medical. I know that people with BPD are much less likely to commit suicide if they are on mecication. One in particular is better for rapid-cycling, but I would have to look it up. I know these kinds of meds are not fun to take. And I know there are some new meds out there. Which ones have you tried so far? hang in there, there is always hope for a new answer around the corner!!

Ps -there is also a community just for bi-polar disorder if you want to put your comment there, someone else may have more info. If you find others with your same problem, dont dispair. Unfortunately, medications just don't always work for everybody, and those of us who have that problem just have to find another way to cope. You are not alone.

Hey, first off, fight those thoughts of suicide. It takes time, but you WILL get through this as long as you stay strong. I have almost the EXACT kind of depression. I have pretty awesome days...then I have day that I don't want to live (not kill myself, just WISH I wasn't alive)but when I feel like that, I'm a writer, so I write my feelings and thoughts in poems or songs and get out all that pent up emotion--and guess what? It really does help. I know it sounds absurd to an extent, but that or talking will hopefully put things in perspective. You are someone's child. You might be someone's sibling. You are someone's friend. If you were gone, that chain reaction would go off, and I highly doubt you'd want to make any of them experience such a loss. FIGHT IT, YOU CAN DO IT!!!! Ohh, and I'm not 'preaching,' well, not trying to, I've been there, and I've done that. I've seen myself get worlds better--problem with me, is keeping that consistant. I hope somethng I said got to you, I'm new to this, but I'm here for you. I care about you a lot already, and I don't even know you--an unspoken bond, if you will. So yea, no bullshit here,I promise. You're here for a reason, and once you do get past this, the experience makes you such a wiser and matured person, that YOU now have the leg up on life. You go! :P

IN the same boat with you hon. I am what is called a rapid cycling bipolar w/ pycoctic episodes. I have been on so many diffrent med and combos of meds It would have seriously killed an elephant. It has taken me 6 yrs and 2 DR and 3 Quacks to get even off the big roller coaster on to a smaller one. I can say some people have it VERY sever and others don't. I have learned to accept my life as it is....I am who I am with what I have.....If I need to cry I cry LIKE A BIG OLE BABY TOO....if I need to get mad, GET OU OF THE WAY, If I want to feel sorry for myself.....the stupid suicidal thoughts occur. I found going to sleep helps with that and so does being totally honest with your DR and self gets you through that. My story is no more fun for me as your is for you, It feels like you'll never get off the rollercoaster you on....at times it causes me to have panic attacks and I have thought it was a heart attack. the pain inside is so deep and strong it takes over the whole body; Is any of this what you feel? I have some coping meditation that I do...you may think they sound stupid or embarrassing but no one has to know...IF any one needs to know what they are please contacts me at sskent430@sbcglobal.net or on here....I'll be more than happy to help....my life hasn't stopped yours doesn't have to either.

I'am bipolar and have depression.I take abilify and lexapro.This really really seems to help me.Best I have found so far.Hope things start getting better for you.