I have my quirks, too serious, too logical, too emotional (re-serious), isolated, reached 38yrs have passed without getting this low. Though every 4 years have changed my job due to conflicts. I have a strong moral compass and beliefs about right and wrong. Others seem either agree or disagree by pointing out how they would have handled a situation. Or point out how they have had it worse or others have it worse... These are not even arguments.. Well here i go again, my boss thinks he can ring me up late Friday and demand i work the weekend... I have some contractual obligations to work reasonable amount of overtime, which may day to day job normally requires 2-3hrs often more which i do. I will work overtime at the weekend that is scheduled. On many occassions i have worked weekends and canceled personal plans. The first time i say no they come down on me like a ton of bricks... Well now I'm depressed 4 sure! Bottles of wiskey, sleepless nights, headaches, visit to A.E. for psych evalu. say so. A whole chasam has opened up b4 me. My future unknown, my house at stake, humilation of not being able to cope... Being right seems to be overrated, but since giving up being bullied at school i'm loath to back down and allow life to push me about.... is the only way out of this to roam the streets homeless.....?
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