I'm not even sure why I'm writing this. I don't know what I'm feeling right now. Numb I guess. Getting used to alot of changes. I'm alive for one person, she knows who she is. That's the only reason I'm still here. I won't name names, that's not fair. I don't know what's between her and I, but I know it's something worth fighting for. Even if it is just a good friendship. I still want to die. But I can't. I'm not allowed. As various people here have bluntly told me, lol. I don't like to worry or alarm people. I try to keep myself to myself. Doesn't always work though. I try not to worry people, but they worry regardless. I don't feel special, despite what people say. I don't really feel loved, even though I am. I am just lost right now. Sort of drifting along, hoping someone will take the time to get to know me and try to understand.
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