I know this is a horrible thing to say, but I need to vent. It really pisses me off when people say that they are under like so much stress and wanna die and shit, and then they say why.....and its because of like two short term problems- oh my bf and i had a fight and i have like such a bitchy mom and so much homework boo fucking hoo. It makes me so angry because I feel like just shouting, "Why don't you fucking try my life, and then see if you still wanna die, you big baby." My dad killed himself, my mom is a drug addict, my fiance had a brain injury and may never get better and I've had to watch him go from Mr. hardass to not even being able to wipe his own ass, I run a household while going to college full time where I must maintain a 3.5 GPA if I wish to continue, I care for my sick mother every day, I have a brain tumor, and just found out that my grandfather (whom I was supposed to recieve a large inheritence from, but then got remarried and spent ALLL of it) is dieing a slow and painful death. I'm not trying to be a bitch and discredit other people's problems....it just makes me so angry when others say that they wish they could kill themselves, when they have no idea what real trauma is. Losing a loved one, having a chronic illness, caring for someone with a chronic illness, divorce, miscarriage, being abused in anyway shape or form. Well thats all sorry if I offended anyone.
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