When the day becomes night and everything is quiet, I become lost in my own thoughts. The world becomes so big and I become so small. I just want to crawl into a hole and die. I feel more low and lost. I am drowning and there is no way out. I am trapped and I can't breathe. I am so extremely tired, sleep isn't enough. maybe if I could hibernate. The medication isn't doing anything, It just makes me numb. I try to be positive, I try to distract myself. but it's not enough. I think I get 8 hours of sleep but its never enough. day and night I'm tired. tired of life... I just do the same things over and over and you're telling me this is just the beginning??? I'm 20 years old my life has just begun but I feel ready to be done already. Perhaps this is my punishment. perhaps I deserve to feel this emptiness and always more intense at night. during the day I can handle it to a point but at night it consumes me completely.
I don't know
Has anyone ever been to a clinic that they're going through to get services and you become good friends with the people that go there and you find drama and nonsense in the mix are some ways I can deal with avoiding that situation?
Hey hey!So, I'm coming out of a 3 week low. I don't think I am in a mania. My new PDoc has adjusted my meds and I think that it is working. I'm starting to get school work done and I went to disability services to see if I could tweak my accommodations and they can. My grades are not the best right now but all is not lost (so I hope). I’ve started knitting again and I feel a lot better!...