I am falling deeper into my dispare of the haunting thoughts called memories. I feel sick to my stomach, a bit anxious, and very tired. Almost 16 yrs ago my husband od'd on heroin and every stinken yr I go through this Major depression from March to May. I though by now it would have gone away. But it doesn't it just keeps on coming back... It still hurts so much. I have remarried and I am happy in my relationship, I just don't get it. This isn't great for hubby2 either,but he tries so hard to help me through it. I have no clue what it would be like to have to live with a ghost. I only know it hurts my hubby, but I can't stop what is going on with me. Believe me I wish I could. Got any clues to any of this???
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