
Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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really frustrated, agitated, all wound up, mind is totally racing, super emotional... yeah, totally about that time of the month but i just wanna fucking get it over with. i've got too much bullshit going on right now to fuck with my already fucked up raging hormones... i just wish i had some kinda outlet here... i mean, could be worse, at least i know there's no way i'm not gonna get my period... so see?? there's my silver lining. at least i know i'm not pregant. i really wish i could cry cause it'd make me feel a million times better, but if it hasn't happened yet, its not gonna. my lil bro just walked on, offered to smoke me down "you look like shit. wanna smoke a blunt?" declined, i usually don't smoke so much anymore and thats all i did today, just made me lazy... please no replies on hot pot is making it worse cause its not, its just pot. please save that whole story. added to that, i was up till four in the morning writing a report (yeah, kinda dickin around on here, drinkin too, and yes, i know that the alcoholism is making it worse, you can critisize me for that) up at 7:30 for school, get there and that damn paper wasn't even due till wed. at least its done, but shit... argh!!!!! i wanna break something or SOMETHING... need a good fucking cuddle but thats a WHOLE nother story that i'm not even gonna begin to ramble about... really wanna go out but its monday night, my girl drinking buddy has class early tomorrow, my boy is working till 3am and i'm not gonna be so low to go to the bar by myself... and, yeah... so, yeah... i'm just gonna sit here and drink alone. good enough for me. i'm just so... don't even really know how to describe it... not a happy fucking camper lately.

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:(

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sorry you are down. alcohol will probably bring you lower but you gotta do what you gotta do, plz be cautious, however, dont want to miss the real deadline for your report.

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Weed doesn't help me anymore. I guess you could go outside and smash something. I used to smash empty beer bottles. Very satisfying.

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yeah, pot hasn't been a big thing for a couple years now... just feels good to smoke down sometimes and get all giggly... besides, if i'm that low for a few days i don't really eat, gets me an appetite somtimes that helps w/ the headache... i'm huge on breaking things when i'm mad (i know, sounds really immature, but sometimes it feels good to just throw something, never at anyone, always my own stuff, yeah, anger management issues here, at least i don't take it out w/ my fists like my dad and bro), but i don't think its gonna cut it tonight. not mad, just sad, i guess... i don't know. i just don't know... just REALLY wanna be able to have a good cry and have someone sit there and hold me for it not cause they have to but cause they really care... just want a magic wand to make everything okay.

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I get very frustrated when I can't cry and just let it all out. Sometimes my body just doesn't want to cry and I just don't know how to deal without crying. I hope you find something to help you cope this evening.

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thanks, me too
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