Im a 26 year old female and my life has completly come to a screching hault. I don't feel sad, well actually thats a lie now I'm starting to feel sad just because the everyday blank and dumb mind that I have will not go away. Everyday is the same feeling nothing and wanting everything I know im kind of rambiling but it's hard for me to even express whats going on in my mind. I'm on meds seroquil and wellbutrin they have done NOTHING, i have had approx 4 med changes throughout the year and heres the kicker I felt good for about 5 months and during that time I guess the "bipolar" that i never knew i had allowed me to loose my job, i wrecked my car, lost my house and for some reason thought it would be best to sign custody of my 4 year old daughter to my ex husband. I'm just in a land of the lost, i now collect unemployment, live with my best friend and her aunt and just wait the days away. I have no personailty it's like I'm a zoombie and my brian has been taken out of my head, I just feel dumb. It's really hard to speak to others when my mind won't open up to find words to say. Coming from the woman who in every day life never shut up, Please if anyone out there has some motivational advice of just a thought please help me i appreicate everyones in put.
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