I,m angry all the time i know i,m a good mother and i don,t deserve what they,ve done and i am so angry about it i feel so powerless ......i,m angry at my ex for yusing are children to abuse me and the pain their going through because of it, i,m angery at the police who did nothing for so long when i pleaded with them to protect us, i,m angry at the courts for giving that sob custody of are children even after i told them what was going to happen,i,m angry at God because if any one could make this hell go away surely it must be him, why is he turning his back on me now, but, mostly i,m angry at me for being such an idiot that i couldn,t even protect myself little lone my children from that monster, because i was so weak and stupid i should have ran , but, i didn,t know were to run to and now i will have to pay for that the rest of my life everyday that my children are gone....and i,m so angry, i wwant to yell and scream and bash something i want them to suffer the way they,ve made me and i want them to hurt with the same pain i feel
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