I don't know what is wrong with me but for the past few months all I seemed to feel is rage. I get triggered by the slightest things even small events. But it's mainly in justice over very serious things that have happened and others not so serious. I feel there are some people who have betrayed me, there are some others I just want to punch right in the face. It's does not good to ruminate on any of this it's bad for your health. I feel that some people have burned their bridges completely with me and I don't know how to face them again if I ever see them. Maybe it's a little dramatic but it's kinda where I'm at. With others the love has absolutely died.
My job makes me so miserable I can't cope. I've tried everything I can to bear it and nothing helps. I was rejected from two jobs that I've applied to. I'm working with a staffing agency but nothing yet. I can't do this anymore. I see absolutely no way out.
I admit, I’ve been struggling a lot lately. Everyday I still manage to take care of stuff. Then fall apart on my own late at night. I have anxiety pretty bad. And I really want to go to a meeting, but it’s really intimidating. I’ll make it through the doors.