Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Sometimes I envision what I would like to say to someone I hate. In this vision I am able to clearly speak and I am in full control of my emotions, so that instead of jumbled words that mean nothing I say what I truly feel.
However, this never happens. When I get angry a different language spills out of my mouth and I spit fire. My eyes feel with tears and my voice quivers; I feel weak!
Is this a sign of my weakness and my innability to communicate with my tormentors. Is this a mark on my soul or an infection in my blood.
Lately I find that it is not just my abusers that torment me, but almost everyone. I find that the more I try to be, the less I am. I am numb from the head down and yet there is so much emotion that comes out of me when I am angry.
Any other day, I cannot cry about anything, I cannot care about anything, I cannot love anything.
I know where the anger comes from. I know why I am numb.
I would really like to know how to lay it all down and breathe easy.
However, this never happens. When I get angry a different language spills out of my mouth and I spit fire. My eyes feel with tears and my voice quivers; I feel weak!
Is this a sign of my weakness and my innability to communicate with my tormentors. Is this a mark on my soul or an infection in my blood.
Lately I find that it is not just my abusers that torment me, but almost everyone. I find that the more I try to be, the less I am. I am numb from the head down and yet there is so much emotion that comes out of me when I am angry.
Any other day, I cannot cry about anything, I cannot care about anything, I cannot love anything.
I know where the anger comes from. I know why I am numb.
I would really like to know how to lay it all down and breathe easy.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
Anger is just another emotion. What makes the difference is why you are angry not that the anger is there i dont think. :)
If you need to talk, I'm all ears, er, eyes... you know what I mean.