I guess my life drasticaly changed right before I turned 18 and I walked in on my father and another man or boy because the fact is that he was probably under age just like the others. He liked to bring his young lovers to my house and I oftern encountered them. I told my mom who was always at work and she said that if I was going to make an acusation like that I needed proof. What was I supposed to do video tape them having sex????? I never got support from her and she never left him. I had to leave in order to survive I could not go another day living with that situation. 12 years have passed and I still feel overwhealmed by the whole situation because the last day that I walked in on my father w a man I told him I would never speak to him again. 2 years passed of me avoiding him and my mom forzing me to talk to him and get over it as if it was that easy. I get a phone call from a family member telling me my father had an accident and is dying at the hospital, my mother never called me to tell me about it because I wasent speaking to her at the time. He died and I never went to the hospital I felt it was pointless I said what I need to say to his face and with a therapist's help I learned to forgive the pain he caused me. Now I am overwhealmed because I am speaking to my mom again but she continues to constantly hurt me emotionaly. Should I have a relationship with her or should I pull away? She constantly betrays me by socializing with family memebers who have just added to my problems.For example one of my aunts asked me what was going on I confided in her and when my father was dying and everyone was asking why I wasent there she told the whole family it was because I found out he was gay and she added that he was a perv. I told my mom what she did and my mom said she was going to talk to her on my aunts next visit they get together go to lunch and the park and never discussed nothing. Isnt my mom with that action stating to my aunt that what she did is ok. Dosent she understan what she is doing, how hurtful it is to know that the one person who is meant to be there for you has betrayed you and never supports me emotionaly. First she supported her pedophile husband and then the person who told the whole family and embarrased me.I dont know how to deal with her and her stupidity. Anyone got advice>? Is she even a mother at all? At times she seems to be my worst enemy!
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