My Grandpa has been in very poor health for years now. Its been very hard to spend time with him the way he is and to see him this way. He gets confused easily and just isn't himself. I feel like for the past few years we've just been waiting for the inevitable to happen. Part of me just wishes it was over instead of always wondering when. Does this make me a bad person? Its not that I want him gone. I love seeing him but at the same time its so hard. I miss him already because I feel like hes already gone. They've told us his heart is processing at about 12% of what it should, which hardly seems possible. They think he had a stroke 2 days ago. My parents went to visit him and my Dad had to feed him. He can't even get out of bed on his own anymore. It just seems like no one should have to live like that. I'm just so sick of always wondering when its going to happen and watching him as he slowly dies. I just want my happy healthy grandpa back but seeing him like this just hurts too much.
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