I dont know whats wrong with me anymore, even on DS I try to put on a face to make ppl thing that I am doing better than what I really am. And some days I will take everything to heart and get upset and other days I seem in a really good mood, well for me anyway, and it can change very quickly. The shrinks seem to say that it is just PTSD and that it may be causing me to be slightly bipolar. Like yesterday, Phil (my husband) said he wanted to go out with his friends, just him and his friends that he wanted to go out without me for a night out. That he hadnt been out in ages, but him and I havent been out in ages either, and I never go out with anyone either. And he never seems to want to go anywhere with me, we never even seem to talk or anything anymore, and then he ended up calling later that night and said he is staying over with them for the night so he never came home, still isnt home. If I would of told him i wanted him to come home he would of just went into a bad mood and then told his friends that i was the reason he couldnt stay over, but should something this small really be bothering me so much? I am not even sure why it is upsetting me. I think it is because I feel as if he would rather be with anyone else but me, since when his friends are around he will talk and laugh with them and go out for drinks etc, but when he is with me he gets on his pc, if i try talking to him he says he is in the middle of something (usually a game) and he never even wants to go to get something to eat with me. He didnt even get me a birthday card for my birthday,and for his birthday I got him presents, a card, cake, lots of alcohol, threw a party for him (had his best friends over to the house) but he did nothing for my b-day. And I can't figure out why this is upsetting me so much, I dont even know how to explain it, i just feel like I am going insane, which i prob even sound insane I am guessing from the way this sounds. I'm just wondering, does it seem that I am insane or is this just some of the effects of bad depression etc.
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