I just feel sad. I am sick of all the misscarriage crap. Physically I am sick as hell & now I have stupid Terrible cramps & I never had cramps before. It's like someone is shooting me in the sides of my stomache. And my head hurts. Just stressed too because I really miss them. Just started crying out of Nowhere today while I was studying. I feel like I am sick of it. I am suffering because I couldn't have them. I just feel inadequate. =( Tired of the physical pain, & mentally & emotional pain. All because of one mistake. It's like I put two babies at jeopardy & I didn't even know that I was pregnant. I am really sad. I just am irritated because I just want to move on & This NEVER EVER happened. Trying to keep busy, but I really miss them. It's almost their birthday so it is like ugh. Why do I have to deal with ALL THIS PAIN & my ex just gets to move on scott free like it's nothing. Just sad. What's it about me that he doesn't even care enough to even be friends? He took his new gf's virginity just like he took mines, I don't understand why he cares about her but NOT about our babies at all!!!!!! =( Just annoyed. ANy suggestions? Just wish that I could go back in time & just NEVER have been bothered!!!!1 =(
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